I resisted looking for a really long time, scared to death about what the number would reveal. But today, I decided I just had to face it. I looked back at my goals to see when I hit 185. April 17th. What was I this morning? 179.4
Now, I knew when I started Boot Camp that the weight loss was going to slow and honestly I've gotten to the point where I really only lose twice a month. 1) Just after a fill I'll typically drop 2-3 pounds and 2) When I get my (.) I'll also drop 2-3 pounds. I started the challenge nearly a month ago at 181.4. My lowest since before starting boot camp was 177.4.
It's hard to get on the scale each day and see 179 or 180 when all I want is for the scale to drop back down. Each day I pray "Please let me see 178!" And each day 179.8, 180.4. GRRRR
I know that my body is changing. I see muscles in my legs that were not as defined even last week. I have guns that are starting to appear in my biceps. I know that these changes are good. But when the number on the scale doesn't change, it does make you pause for a minute.
This is why I think Dr. Ren's idea around thinking of your goal as a size and not a number is a good thing. Why have I set my goals to numbers as opposed to sizes? If my goal was a size 10, I wouldn't be so focused on what the scale said everyday. I fit into a size 12 pants last weekend that didn't fit the week before. That alone should make me rejoice instead of be cranky about being stuck at 180.
So...I'm declaring a scale free week next week. Will I still get on it? YES - I'm crazy like that. But, I will not let it control how I feel about myself and what I've accomplished and instead of thinking of my next goal as 175, I'm going to think of it as an official size 12. That's what I want. That's what I'm hoping for, regardless of the number on that damn scale!
This is such a good idea! I HATE how fixated I get about the number on the scale and what it does to my mind. I've even trained Jeff's brain to start thinking that way! It's horrible. Even he'll catch himself sometimes saying "what'd the scale say today?" and it bugs him that he thinks that way too.
ReplyDeleteYou have worked your butt off (quite literally) and are looking absolutely amazing!
AWESOME idea! I'm really wanting to be a solid size 14... I'm comfortably still at a size 16, so I think that is much more doable than just looking at the tenths of a pound!!! Such a continued inspiration!!!
ReplyDeleteI can't even begin to tell you how much I am in this with you. I have been stuck around the 175 mark for so long now it's driving me crazy. I bounce up to 178 then back down the up...rinse repeat...All I know is that my body is changing and that damn number is going to catch up eventually!
ReplyDeleteCongrats on the new muscles! I got caught today evaluating my calves...the BF wouldn't let me get away with that without making smart alec comments!
great idea!! I am jealous of your new GUNS ;)
ReplyDeleteHey at least you girls are in the 170s! I have been stuck in the 180s (um, mid to high 180s) since MARCH! Now, I'm not doing boot camp or anything like that....but crap!
ReplyDeleteOn the other hand, I just took pictures of myself in my size 12 J.Crew skirt, and that makes me feel better. I do not always fit in a size 12 (especially at BR, seems a little smaller than JCrew), but more often than not. I guess I will always be a high number on the scale....so be it.
You are doing fabulous and you lost SOOO much SOOO fast! You must look totally amazing!
I see that 179 fleetingly and hope for the 178. I do know it will come. The scale is such a tease! Keep on what you are doing and you will be rewarded. I don't care what anyone says, the numbers still play a huge role in our lives. Even when our clothes fit loose.
ReplyDeleteGreat idea, and GREAT JOB sticking with boot camp. I think I can see your muscles rippling all the way over here...
ReplyDeleteThat's a great idea Jenny...I guess it feels the same whether you're stuck at 179 or 202.
ReplyDeleteWho am I kidding...I'd kill to be in onederland with you.
Even if I weighed 179 today, you would still be exponentially more "fit" than I because of your amazing exercise program. Be proud of that and be patient while the scale catches up with your guns.
You know its strange but everyone who was banded around our time seems to be stuck on that damn scale - myself included. At least our bodies are doing the collective 'stuck' together.. not that it helps us individually much lol. There is a lot of hair pulling going on.
ReplyDeleteSmart to think of getting into a clothes size and not let the scale dictate. I loved your pic of the smashed one up top. We feel like doing that often!!
Proud of you and your new muscles. You are focused and that helps immensely.
You nailed this one baby! Size 12 - BE PROUD!
ReplyDeleteI'm super stuck too. I'm about to put my scale in the driveway and drive over it!!
ReplyDeleteI'm going to do it! A scale free week. Health and clothes are really much better ways to assess where I'm at than a number on the scale. Weight is important as a gage, but maybe not a daily obsession?!?
ReplyDeleteAmen to saying 'bye' to the scale if it is making you crazy. I hear what it is like about slow weight loss. I have determined that I am averaging 2 pounds A MONTH. But you know what: the weight is coming off and that really counts in the long run. We need to talk and make the pool plans! V
ReplyDeleteI think you are sooo right about the size!! especially when you are working out so intensely (not that I can say I can relate to the intense workouts yet..haha). I am so impressed when I read about your workouts and you should be so proud of yourself! I hope that I can one day be in a place to try boot camp!
ReplyDeleteSorry I am so late on this, just catching up on blogs! I totally hear you - that stupid little number can really rule us. I think that your new outlook is very good - go for the 12, you can do it! <3
ReplyDeleteI couldn't agree with you more! Weight looks so different on people-height, how they carry it etc.
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