I'm two pounds from goal. I started my (.) this morning, three days early. I typically lose during my (.), so I'm thinking I might meet goal sooner than I thought. These last 10 pounds have literally melted off, I think I must be at my sweet spot. (I'm sorry I know that's probably frustrating for some people to read, I know I get frustrated when I read that on other's blogs, but it's nice when I remember the time it took me 3.5 months to lose 10 pounds). Getting my (.) now makes me feel better about my band becoming a vice grip this weekend. I could not figure out what was going on and because I wasn't expecting to get my (.) for another week, it didn't occur to me that it would be that!
Anyway, on to the title of my post. As I'm approaching 165 and a normal BMI (CRAZY), I realize that while I am thrilled, and honestly feel at an average weight for the first time in my life, I am meant to be thinner. I'm approaching a size 12, still a 14 in some clothes. There are still places on me that I want to be thinner (some of this will have to come with surgery - tummy, etc). Don't get me wrong, I feel amazing and if I stayed here for the rest of my life, that would be fine. But I think back to Dr. R saying my goal should be a size 8. I think that would be around 140 for me which is unimaginable!! I had always said that 165 would be my initial goal, followed by 155 being my final goal. But, like the title of my blog says, this is a journey. Journies are meant to evolve as you set out on the path. So, while I will dance a jig and celebrate like mad when I get to 165, I think the shopping spree et. al will be put on hold for a bit. There is a skinnier girl buried deep inside of me, and while the majority of her is shining through, I think there is a bit more of her that is still waiting to appear.
Oh, p.s. I remember a post back in April here where I discussed feeling incredible, but not seeing the skinny girl in my photos. I realize that part of the amazing experience of "band" camp, was finally seeing her. She's there, she's me, and I'm really proud of the decision she made in getting the band, and working her butt off this past year!!
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You so completely rock! I think you are going to see the magic number by next week. Woot!!
ReplyDeleteYour journey has inspired me and continues to motivate me! Thank you and Congrats! YOU ROCK!
ReplyDeleteSo proud of you and for you.. you're an inspiration but I hate you a little bit (just kidding) for speeding along so much! Wow.
ReplyDeleteAs for the journey part, I am with you sister. Keeping your mind and your options open is a definitely critical. Enjoy the ride, skinny girl.
You're so close! That's awesome! I'm noticing a theme to those hitting their goals around blogworld that now that they're reaching them, they're setting lower ones because they don't feel they've "settled" yet. I think when you're overweight, it's just so hard to imagine being "thin" that we pick attainable goals that don't seem so extravagant but once you reach it, you have the confidence to aim higher (or lower so to speak). Congratulations!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you can see the skinny girl that we see. Hoping that two pounds comes off quickly.
ReplyDeleteYou are such an inspiration! Congratulations :)
ReplyDeleteI just realized that we had virtually the same starting weight. Whenever I see the skinny girls like you I always assume you started much smaller than me for some reason. It is so heartening to know that someday I'll be writing about losing more than 100 lbs. and being 2 lbs. from goal. You are amazing and I am so grateful for your willingness to share this journey. Thank you 115 + times!
ReplyDeleteFirst off can I say that I am so jealous the you lose during your (.) because I do anything but lose. :) Congrats on being so close to goal. I think that continuing to 140 is completely attainable for you. Thanks for sharing your story with all of us. You were one of the first blogs I found before I decided to have WLS and I celebrate with you on your success. Congrats!
ReplyDeleteSo proud of "her"!
ReplyDeleteYou are an inspiration!
ENJOY!
Wow Jen! It's crazy to think we were banded around the same time and watch your journey- it's like watching a parallel universe and I always feel so honoured to be able to see you progress through each stage, every 10 lbs, the ups and the downs. You are inspiring. 145 sounds very do-able. I'll keep following along. :-)
ReplyDeleteYou really are a great inspiration! Awesome!
ReplyDelete2 pounds away... that is amazing! Getting to goal and looking like you do is the prize, anything after that is just icing on the cake! And you have the rest of your life to ice that cake as much as you want! :) Good job!
ReplyDeleteI totally feel shaky with excitement for you! True story. 2 pounds? Come ON! Will you be creeped out if I bow before you in Chicago?
ReplyDeleteI got goose bumps reading your post Jen! I am so honored to be here when your dreams become a reality! I cannot wait and I am so excited for you!
ReplyDeleteI am so excited for the phase you are about to enter. I agree to just let your journey progress and not set a specific ending point. If we're not supposed to be on a diet, then why would our eating habits change once we hit our goal weight...I think we will all continue to lose weight until our bodies tell us it is done.
ReplyDeleteYou inspire me and have for a long time.
You are the best and such an inspiration!!! I'm so proud to know you Jen!
ReplyDeleteCan't wait to see that goal post in a couple of days!!
xoxoxo,js
You Rock! I love you! Great minds think a like ;)
ReplyDeleteLove your post and could not agree more about the journey part..so happy for you being close to goal but am also happy for you and your evolving goals!! You remain an inspiration!
ReplyDeleteComing out of lurkerdom here! I think you and I have pretty similar stats, I am 5'8", starting at 271, and want to get to 165 (to start). I am being banded 4 weeks from today, so your blog has been a huge inspiration to me!
ReplyDeleteI'm also in NYC :)
http://talesfromtheband.blogspot.com/
Dear Jenny Penny,
ReplyDeleteYour blog is so amazing, I love keeping track of it. You're an inspiration and not just for losing weight, but reaching for and achieving your goals. I am having a hard time writing something I need to and you are such a motivator for me!
By the way ladies, I've known this wonderful lady since 4th grade! She's always, always been this cool. ;-)
So awesome!!! You are the best. Get your S.O.B. story ready! When you get there...email to me at coloradofamily@hotmail.com. Can't wait to hear it! You rock!
ReplyDeleteYou are amazing! I can't wait to see the victory post for this goal! It seems like we all go in thinking we know what our goal should be. As I read all of these amazing stories of people like you hitting your goals - it makes me realize - it really is just a number. What seems too crazy to be realistic suddenly seems achievable! It's all about being comfortable with you! You are an inspiration to me. <3
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