Many Thanks

You are seriously some incredible ladies. First the comments regarding my arms...amazing! I get it...in these pictures, they look good. The reality is, I got really lucky with pictures. We all have our shit right? I emailed Nicole about five times to make sure I could use that picture as my facebook profile picture before actually posting it. On a good note, confidence level still about a 9.5. ;-)


Some more pictures got posted on facebook today, including one that was just of my legs. It was the first time in the world, that I wish that I didn't hide my tagged photos. (My tagged photos aren't viewable by anyone because I was always so embarrassed by them). Not anymore friends. Turns out, this feels damn good. (Note, I've had two glasses of pinot grigio and am a really cheap drunk, so this could be the wine talking). ;-)


Thanks also for your advice on S. I'll admit to being pretty hung up. I checked my phone a couple of times today hoping that he had texted. But I thought about him about a million times less than I did yesterday. In the end, I know that it's not going anywhere. Hell, in the end I know that if I got him, it probably wouldn't work. It was just the strongest feeling I've had about someone in a really long time. I'm ready for the guy that I don't have to wonder "Is he feeling this to?" I'm ready for the guy who straight out tells me that he misses me. Tells me that he wants me. I deserve that. I've worked too hard to settle for anything less than that.


Note to anyone reading...please remind me of this when I check my phone two hundred times tomorrow...


It's interesting this position I'm in. I've recently reconnected with an ex-boyfriend. A guy I really cared about. In the end, he's not interested in marriage, nor children (both dealbreakers for me), and has lived with the same girl since we broke up (five years ago). We reconnected the week I had surgery, we still haven't seen eachother, although I venture a guess we will soon. He called me and we spoke for the first time two weeks ago. He's been diagnosed with potential thyroid cancer and is having surgery in October. He's using my surgeon's office. It's a connection I never expected to share with someone, let alone an ex. Weird huh? Anyway, I'm so solid in my feelings about what I want for my life, that I don't expect that anything will spark when I see him. But it's still so strange to be back in this position. The nice thing is that I'm about 20 pounds less than I was when we dated, feeling much better about myself and know in my heart of hearts that there is something better for me out there. Thanks to all of you for your belief in me.


Some more fun corps pictures....