Hey Everyone. Things have been insane for me since returning from Chicago. I had a huge project launch at work, so it's been non-stop. I'm thrilled about this being a long weekend!! I'm off to Montreal and Toronto next week for work...any bandsters in the area??
I got a slight unfill (.2) before Chicago and it's flipped me upside down. I feel like I can eat anything, no problems at all. Now, I've been trying to keep down my portions and haven't decided to eat bread all of a sudden or anything (I've only eaten wraps/tortillas for the last year). But I find that regardless of what I'm eating the scale is moving in the wrong direction. Example, I had dinner with my size 0 girlfriend last week. We both ordered pasta with mushrooms. We ate the same amount....I gained three pounds. It hasn't gone away. I'm up about 7 pounds from my lowest. I figure that because I've upped my portions (still normal sized) but since they are bigger than what I had been eating, my body is freaking out. So frustrating!! I have a fill scheduled for Oct 18th. It's amazing to me the difference that .2 can make!!!! BOO BAND. BOO JENNY!
I've always committed to be honest on this blog, but I'll admit this was a tough one to write. I know that my weight loss has been really consistent to date. Just wanted everyone to know, newbies included, that it's still a tough battle to fight even when you're close to goal. The glorious thing that the band does is makes it so you don't have to diet. You can order the lush meal because you know you'll only be able to eat 1/2 of it or less. The problem is that when your restriction levels fall, you'll end up eating a bit more of that 1/2, and nothing stops you. Except you. Reminds us that we are still very much a part of this process. Every minute of every day.
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Hang in there...you've realized how to correct the issue, this journey is always a learning process. You can do it! :)
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you're not beating yourself up over the situation and can understand your frustration. Isn't it crazy what .2 can do. I'm over 5 months in and I just recently can even acknowledge knowing what it feels like to be "tight"...when I've been reading about it for 10 months. You are so disciplined and your progress has been so amazing that I'm confident this is just a short phase you needed before starting your final trek to "goal".
ReplyDeleteI left a brief response on your comment (on my last blog) in case you want to look at it...you are NOT one of those in that "latter category"...you were one of the joys of my weekend. Thank you.
Oh Jenny, sorry about those pounds. I know it's frustrating. But you have the right attitude - and a fill scheduled - so those el-bees will be history in no time. Hang in there, and enjoy your weekend!
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for this post - "food" for thought down the road (that was a terrible pun).
ReplyDeleteI have a fill appt on the 18th as well (I'm also an NYU bandster and this will be my first!) Maybe I'll see you there :)
Liz
talesfromtheband.blogspot.com
Hang in there. You will be heading down before you know it. Have a great long weekend!!
ReplyDeleteSo difficult to get the balance right, isn't it? Hope the fill does the trick.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry to hear about the gain, but it sounds like you know just what to do to get back on track. Hope your upcoming fill does the trick and gets that scale moving back the right way!
ReplyDeleteWhen I first read this, I got scared and thought you said your port FLIPPED! Woo. Crisis averted there. Listen, I have gained 7 pounds before and lost them. You know that. And I know that it sucks. But I know that you and are are so similiar with our weight loss and nonweight loss. Should we do something together? Like when angie and I did the A-squared challenge? Email me and let me know.
ReplyDeleteDo you know what else? Do you remember when we were like a 22 or something bigger? And we would have said "I went to lunch with my friend who is like a size 10!"...but now that we are size 10-12, we have to say "My size zero friend"...funny huh?
Amen, sister. I am right there with you. 150 pounds down and last night I was standing in the kitchen eating stale peanuts. They weren't even good. A person can't really "win the war on weight" because wars end. However, we win most of the battles!
ReplyDeleteJenny 1st of all I know how hard it was to write this post so bravo!!!...second of all try not stress. You will loose again after the fill.Keep your chin up
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